Hi everyone! I love using WordPress because it’s easy to write blog posts on here. I’ve been feeling so grateful for all of the good things that have been happening in my life. I recently went through some things with my family and I realized that I’m better without them in my life. I still care for them, but I don’t keep them as close as I used to.
My life went through a huge downhill spiral when they were heavily involved in my life. I had days where I thought I would go crazy. I didn’t know if I was too sensitive or if I just needed space, but I had so many bad days where I couldn’t even understand anything that was going on. There were many days like that. When you are upset constantly, it changes your view of yourself. And I am so glad that I have began the journey back to appreciating myself again.
I hated myself greatly. I lost my self-esteem and my will to do anything. My family would call me “dramatic,” but they only valued their own emotions. They didn’t value mine. And that is why I keep my distance with them.
I have learned so much about myself these past couple of months. I thought I was too weak to stand up for myself and to walk on my own. It turns out that I am so much stronger than I thought I was. Not only can I stand up for myself, but I can take care of myself perfectly fine.
My life has gone through a dramatic change. I’ve seen and experienced many blessings since I’ve made the change. I wish that I had done this sooner, but it’s better to do so late than never.
I got the recital venue that I wanted today. Not only am I going to have a vacation house, but I am going to have a recital venue also. I can’t wait. And I attribute this blessing to all of the positive changes that I have made. I feel like for the first time that I can finally breathe. I don’t have anymore negative thoughts about myself. I used to constantly look down on myself because I was hearing the comments from my family members. They told me that I am not liked, appreciated, respected, or capable. These are a plethora of items that they continued to tell me that I don’t have. I ended up hating myself. My health disintegrated into nothing and I was in ruin.
Today, I feel like I have finally achieved everything that I have always wanted. I have the career, the beautiful family that I’ve created on my own, the financial stability, friends, and everything else that I’ve always wanted. I am grateful for my beautiful husband. I am so lucky to have him in my life.
I now know that I am not a stupid girl. I know that my words and emotions do matter. If I want to have a wedding, I deserve to have the special day for myself. And I deserve to be able to choose what I want to do with my life.
Thank you to those who have been with me and have read my words. I read all of your messages. They make me feel better on the days where I desperately need to hear them. And they matter a lot to me every day.
Not only is blogging a viable tool for creating a business and making money, but I will not be diminished anymore by my family who believes that it is not important.
I hope that you have a great weekend. And thank you so much for reading this. I greatly appreciate it.