An Update on my Life

Hi everyone 👋 I’m back from a short break. I’ve been sick from the flu and I’m actually still recovering from the flu. I haven’t been doing much of anything besides watching movies and resting. I’m trying to get back on the working train and start working again, but I’ve been afraid. I’m afraid to overextend myself and to work too hard when I know my body needs to heal; that is mainly why I’ve been cooped up in my house for a couple of days. I also know how my body reacts to stress and being overworked. I’m not the type of person that can work when I’m sick.

I have been working on my blog though. It’s easier to do because it’s on my phone and it’s one of the only work related things I’ve done in the past couple of days besides going to teach one lesson. It’s been nice to work on my blog and give it the attention it needs. I’ve been obsessed with mommy blogs because I want to be a mommy blogger in the future. Motivational blogs are also my favorite.

I’m probably not going to write too much. I’m going to return back to my resting after writing this. I’ve been watching movies on Netflix. Olympus has fallen has been my absolute favorite movie so far. I also watched the other two movies In the series. I even watched Anger Management with Adam Sandler. I really hope I feel better tomorrow because I have my lsat class tomorrow. And I have a couple of lessons to go to. I’m also meeting my friend to hang out tomorrow. I’ll talk to you guys later!

Add this to the list of things I’m learning about myself… I’m a loner!

In high school, I was interested in making new friends so I talked to everyone. I knew a lot of people and had many friends. Fast forward to college, I didn’t have many friends and I found myself staying home by myself most of the time. I wish I had more friends, but I wasn’t very sociable. And consequently, I was pretty lonely. Now, however, I never found the need to be sociable because I’m so busy all the time. I’m starting to think that I need to be sociable again. I need to start making friends because life is not as fun without them. With the new start of 2020, I’m going to try to make some new friends. And I hope that this year will be a little less lonely.

What’s been new with me

My birthday just recently passed and I’ve been working a lot. I have 21 piano and double bass students that I teach every week. They are quite a handful of young kids. And I’ve been noticing that some of the younger ones are not practicing. I’ve been thinking of implementing a check in on practicing every Thursday to see how their progress is going.

I dealt with some trials and tribulations yesterday, but I shared that with my other blog. I went out to buy my own shoes, so no one will steal them. And I hid my current ones away too 😁 They are my “teaching shoes” that I wear every day to go teach. Even my oldest sister, that I don’t live with anymore, knows that those shoes are mine. But somehow, they were taken when I needed to wear them… now that won’t happen! I’m also going camping today with friends. We’re camping in their backyard haha because we don’t want to tough out the actual wilderness. And bathroom breaks are a lot easier.

I have my first piano lesson of the day in 45 minutes. And I’ve been spending these last few minutes, as I always do, just relaxing and calming down. Yesterday was a good full day of lessons. My students definitely cheer me up when I feel down.

I hope everyone is having a great day 👍

Daily motivation #1

I’m doing this on my other blog, but I thought it would be cool to bring it on here also 🤗

Life can sure bring us down sometimes. You need good people around you. Your friends and family are going to be the most important people in your life. They will help you stand up and they’ll be there if you fall.

On the contrary, if someone does not help you; if they only want you to care and they don’t care about you, drop them. Fill your life with good people and watch your life flourish like a beautiful garden ☀️ 🌸 🌺 💐 🌹

Is Blogging Even Worth it??

Short answer: Yes, if you are using it to push other products out. Long answer: It’s not so easy to explain.

When you start a blog, you have this great dream of becoming a huge blogger. You’re so excited to choose the name of your blog, start creating blog posts, and you’re pushing out content all the time. A month goes by, and you still have your momentum, but it’s starting to wane. And you’re finding yourself upset because your viewership wasn’t as strong as before. A couple weeks go by and you haven’t posted a blog post in awhile. You’re unmotivated… You’re thinking, “it’s just not working!” What do people even want to read? Why aren’t they reading my posts?

And then you ask yourself: is blogging even worth it?

First of all, ask yourself what your goals are. Blogging is a tool, people. You use it to supplement your other stuff. It shouldn’t be considered a business even though it takes so much of your time like a business does. And you have to actually like blogging!

Blogging is not something that you pick up as a whim. It takes SOOOOO much time to build. And it takes patience, effort, and a passion for blogging. Eventually, you will build something successful. You have to keep telling yourself that. As for now, stay calm. Don’t overwork yourself. Keep going and keep a smile on your face 🙂

An Old Fashioned Heart to Heart Talk

I’ve been making it a goal of mine to blog consistently because blogging is something that I really enjoy doing. I’ve also been wanting to post more topic posts that address a problem and elaborates more on it. I was inspired by Alfie’s (Pointlessblog) youtube video in which he talks about topics in front of his audience. And I want to start mine as well. My very first post is going to be about social anxiety. I think most people don’t know this about me or they might have started to catch on, but I have social anxiety. I can’t stand being in big crowds or talking in a large group. It’s something that I don’t feel comfortable with and I have never expressed it to other people. And it’s something extremely personal about me.

You would think that I wouldn’t have this problem because I teach all the time. I guess my brain approaches these situations differently than if I was in a big group of people. I’ve seen MANY people physically feel uncomfortable around me because I am not willing to have a conversation with them. And it’s not that I’m being rude, it’s honestly because I know how I will be if I try to engage in a conversation with other people. My body will react slower and I will just be miserable. So what do I do? I avoid these interactions completely. And that’s why you will see me by myself at parties or not talking much at events.

I’ve been asked by a lot of people about how I make friends. And the honest answer to that question is that I really cherish the friendships that I made with people that I’ve been friends with for a long time. So, since my social anxiety has become more prominent later in my life, I don’t feel that way around my friends. And you can probably guess that I haven’t really made new friends since.

I think many people struggle with social anxiety (I was just about to say “suffer”, but that would not be the right word). And it’s often misinterpreted as rudeness. I don’t want people to think that I’m a rude person that thinks very highly of herself. I am the opposite. I just don’t feel comfortable starting conversations. And believe me, I’m trying to slowly regain some confidence in this area. But as of right now, I would rather stay in my bubble where I feel most comfortable.