For awhile, I have been feeling like I let people walk over me. There are times when I don’t realize it before it’s too late. I try to avoid conflict. Most of the time, I just don’t say anything back. I think about this all the time though. And I keep my hurt inside. I don’t mention it to the person that hurt me. Most of the pain resonates with my actions towards them afterwards. I shy away from talking to them and I avoid interacting with them as much as possible. These are all of the struggles that I’ve been feeling lately. And it’s crushing. I can’t sleep sometimes. My mind is always racing. I wish I wouldn’t hold on to the pain that was caused, but I can’t forget.
Standing up for myself has been something that I’ve been trying. When the other person is trying to hurt my feelings or take advantage of my kindness, I try to say something back. If that doesn’t work, I simply walk away from the conversation. I don’t allow them to say mean things anymore. I know that if I was to allow them to continue, then I would only be hurting myself more.
It’s better to have solitude and peace. There are days when I wish I could have those people back in my life. I have to remind myself to keep looking forward. If I am strong enough to be on my own, then I know that I will be okay. I can’t let the fear of walking by myself scare me.